Recently i read an article in the times of india. It is about money coming in the way of a harmonious marriage and thus turning the relationship sour. I myself have been looking for a girl who can be my companion and friend.In our  Indian system, it is really important for the guy to be well to do. i also agree with that, finances have to be taken care of, it is the ingredient which runs life. In todays MNC, globalised working environ, where people earn like anything, they are missing out something very important than JUST Money. Whenever one talks to a family for a matrimonial alliance, the second or the third question is " How much package does the guy draw". personally  for me it is a full stop. I feel that money shud be a concern, but just money never runs life. i have seen marital discord between couples who are earning like anything. Frequent quarrels over petty issues, sometimes physical fight starts to plague their lives- mind you the couple earns in 6 sum figures. So what is missing ? any guesses?.. Patience, Understanding,Adjustments. i personally feel life is all about adjusting to different circumstances( come what may!). Till now i haven't found a single parent of a girl who has not asked me about my package/ctc or salary whatever one might call. The second or max the third question is "what is the package" a kinda euphemism for salary. Traditional family values are being lost to unnecessary materialistic views. Take this " You
can buy riches with your moolah, but excess dosh can drive away intimacy and
togetherness from a relationship". More Money doesn't mean more happiness, true in present scenarios, where husband and wife work late, don't share joy or happiness( may be they don't get time- don't be so ciritcal !!). Sometimes th earning spree is such that the couple is left with so much money that either they can spend on their personal needs or spend on each other, the choice one makes is imprtant.
But what ever one can take from this, for me relationship , care and understanding is utmost, a couple who clings on to each other even in adverse situations comes out shining even if they are low on resources. May be too old fashioned and redundant to say in the present world.

Memories
consume Like opening the wound I'm picking me apart again You all
assume I'm safe here in my room Unless I try to start again. I don't
want to be the one The battles always choose 'Coz inside I realize That
I'm the one confused" --

These lines from the album
METEORA by Linkin Park of the single " Breaking the Habit" keeps
reminding me of something or the other. Something that haunts me inside.
Always
had that inner desire to achieve something in life, despite the
shortfalls in me. But "something" was always there which forced me to
keep those desires under wraps..but why??? and what????. Then realized
that one can alter itz destiny... a lil bit though, but can't change
it. So accepting it was what i started doing lately. thatz why i felt
safe..ok let it be and blaah. But ohh wait a minute .. that inner
desire fired another salvo, to start again, fight again. Therefore--
'"Don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream I don't
know why I instigate And say what I don't mean", -- want to break the
habit of keep on pushing for.

But then this infighting inside me
has really torn me apart. I mean trying to come to terms with life to
either flow wid it or swim against it. Thatz why i quite easily relate
myself, my life till now with Linkin Park's music. I feel so close to
it. To keep off from this meandering
inside, i thougt it better listen to your heart, coz there are 2 minds"
don't we have??" So start listening to a small yet powerful machine"-
heart. So from now onwards listen to only one entity, and stay away
from 2 jealous nerds. yes yes Heart is alright, doesn't have brain..
wow so won't think and i would be in total peace. No insomnia, no
nothing.

But the emotional is this Machine, GAWD. Became an emotional fool ..that the two nerds started laughing on me.
Hmm.. what to do???


What
to do then????? Hmm relatively simple, tuned up my head- scolded both
the idiots to stay calm and said wud listen to both of you. OHh yeah..
chucked out the heart from my so called "MINDSET".
To apply the
said, stoned my self, chucked out the ego too!! started being alone.
Hmm.. Lonely Recluse i thought.. yeah a nice one!! coz being alone has
taught me to be "MYSELF". Yes now i knw... to strike a balance and
live, thatz how i live.. at least NOW!!! Ending wid the lines of
another single by Linkin Park:
" Something has been taken from deep inside of me The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see Wounds so deep they never show they never go away Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played."


lOnLeY rEcLuSe - Love the Way i AM